Shapes and colors make me happy.
I like abstract paintings. I like Picasso. I like solid colors - blue, red, yellow, green and orange. Sometimes I like neon. I like geometric lines and shapes. I'm particularly fascinated with squares. Not so much with waves and unclosed curves. I don't like Baroque-inspired designs. I don't like paintings of the Madonna and Child, farmers in the field, flowers in vases, and fruits in baskets. They hurt my eyes.
I.AM.SAM
Name::xam From::Metro Manila, Philippines
i'm a pirate at heart. i'm smart, ruthless and greedy. yesterday i navigated the seas and my comrades died in battle. today i am trapped in davy jones' locker. but tomorrow i will find gold, i will be free and i will roam the seas again. Learn more about Sam
"I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge
That myth is more potent than history.
I believe that dreams are more powerful than facts -
That laughter is the only cure for grief.
And I believe that love is stronger than death."
~Robert Fulghum, It Was On Fire When I Laid Down On It
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You Belong to Me
See the pyramids around the Nile
Watch the sun rise
From the tropic isle
Just remember darling
All the while
You belong to me
See the market place
In old Algiers
Send me photographs and souvenirs
Just remember
When a dream appears
You belong to me
And I'll be so alone without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too
Fly the ocean
In a silver plane
See the jungle
When it's wet with rain
Just remember till
You're home again
You belong to me
Oh I'll be so alone without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too
Fly the ocean
In a silver plane
See the jungle
When it's wet with rain
Just remember till
You're home again
You belong to me
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What's Up
Twenty - five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination
And I realized quickly when I knew I should
That the world was made up of this brotherhood of man
For whatever that means
And so I cry sometimes
When I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out
What's in my head
And I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream at the top of my lungs
What's going on?
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on?
Ooh, ooh ooh
And I try, oh my god do I try
I try all the time, in this institution
And I pray, oh my god do I pray
I pray every single day
For a revolution
And so I cry sometimes
When I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out
What's in my head
And I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream at the top of my lungs
What's going on?
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on?
Twenty - five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination
I forgive the unforgiveable if I love you. I would die for you, I would kill for you. But I don't forgive the littlest thing if I don't like you. I believe that there are only four kinds of people in this world: people i love, people i like, people i don't care about, and people who must go. There is no particular reason for me to love you, like you, not care about you, or want you to disappear. Love happens. And shit happens likewise. I would love you even if you're a criminal or a traitor. I would like you just because you like the same brand of cigarette as I do. I would not care about you even if my life depended on it. I would want you to disappear just because you remind me of Shrek. I'm not a fair person. I judge people based on hearsay. Or intuition. I play favorites. Doesn't matter if I'm with the the wrong side. In fact, I'm even more inclined to dislike people who are just too "good." Something superficial, otherworldly about it that makes me twinge.
I like psycho-analyzing other people - inner thoughts and desires, motives, insecurities, etc. I use psychoanalysis for or against these people. I use it to as a light and shield. To understand or to defend. Or I use it as a bullet. To destroy. Like I said, I am not a fair person. Anyone is free to hate me for this.
I justify things, be it right or wrong. I try to rationalize what is irrational. Some people, they fall for it and believe me. Some see through me. I always convince myself.
I don't believe that people are inherently good. Nor bad. I believe that people love. This is inherent. Love for self. Love for family. Love for God. It's actually random. And love makes people do all sorts of things.
No, I am not unique. I am plain. Plain and wanting to step up and make a difference. But plain nonetheless. I do not want to think that I am so different from you all. We are all of the same nature. We live, we love, we die. That is all we are.
Posted by xam ::
Saturday, October 08, 2005 ::
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