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Tuesday, July 31, 2007

I love Portia!

I love Portia!!!

I used to read entries at the Portia Logbook at the Portia Room when I was new to Portia. They say “I love Portia!” I used to wonder if I’d ever get there.

I did. :)

Sometimes, I admit, I get this not-so-good pangs about Portia. Like I get tired of all the activities and all the commitments (SORRY!!!). I don’t think being human is a legitimate excuse for feeling all these, but maybe, just maybe, that’s really my reason. I’m human – I get burnt out sometimes, I feel selfish sometimes, I get all existentialist sometimes, I might even feel like an escapist sometimes. After all, law school is a really stressful endeavor, and well, Portia IS a law-based sorority. :) So my guess is, it happens to the best of us, but for the sake not only of our commitments, but also for our own, we have to overcome whatever not-so-good feeling it is that we feel.

At the end of the day, Portia really is ALL ABOUT SISTERHOOD. At times we may feel lost. I think maybe it’s good faith that keeps us going. It’s not just about loyalty, or secrecy, or trust, or excellence, or discipline. It really is GOOD FAITH. When you’re in your lowest point, and you don’t trust EVEN YOURSELF, what else could keep you going? It’s your sisses who remain strong not only for themselves, but also for the sisses, for you.

This is what happened to me. :)

And I appreciate so much that I can talk to just about any of my sisses. Like I can blurt out anything that’s been driving me crazy. And I don’t know if it’s because misery loves company, but I feel better when some of my sisses do that to me too. :) I’ve never been used to the concept of sisterhood, and I always doubted how it is possible to get a grasp of real sisterhood by just being sorority sisters. But Portia does that! It surprised me, but I cannot doubt it, there is NO DOUBT. It’s true. :)

Portia keeps me going. And because of this, I can’t imagine ever turning my back on Portia. I have transcended “serving” Portia to “loving” Portia for what it truly is – SISTERHOOD. It’s about having GOOD FAITH, A PURE HEART. :) I don’t even mind the activities and the commitments anymore. Well, maybe it could conflict with my other plans sometimes, but I won’t turn my back on Portia, ever. I will always find a way to make up. You know, like with people you really love? Like when sometimes you fail your mother, or your boyfriend, but you find a way to make up somehow. It’s like that. :)

I’m so lucky to be a Portian. I am sooooo proud to be a Portian. I love Portia. :)

I love you all sisses!

MMMMMMMWWWWWWAAAAAH! :)

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